When I worked in
public accounting there was a thing called busy season. Now that I work where I'm at right now there
is also a thing called busy season that crosses summer and fall. This busy season is about one thousand times
worse than any previous busy season.
So that's where I've
been the last few months. Ever since August I've been drowning in work. Drowning in the night sweats, rattled by the
shakes and heart palpitations I'd get. Sleepless
nights, anxiety riddled early mornings, and many evenings fueled by office
snacks and the overwhelming fear of failure and disappointment. I was the epitome of an angst ridden young
professional throwing herself into work in order to run from her personal
life.
In my absence, life
has still continued. I had a birthday, traveled, dated, mealed with friends,
done a lot of shopping, and tried to maintain some resemblance of life, albeit
less social and more self-preservation.
But that time is
coming to a close. I won't do it again
like this next year, mark my words.
So this is to
announce that I'm back. In the last week, I'm sleeping through the night, eating well(-ish), conquered the night
sweats, heart palpitations and shakes.
I'm making time for friends (hi, love you guys!), have a clean house, a
mostly full fridge, back at the boot camp schedule, a closet (and then some) of
clean clothes, good fiction sitting on my nightstand, and miraculously a job I still love.
I hope to write more in the coming months. Really write. Most
recently I'm dreaming of taking a month off and retreat to Tuscany to strictly
write and let the creative side of my brain get a good bout of exercise. I'm still ruminating on this but it certainly
within the realm of possibility.
Good to be back. Alive and living my every day amazing life....
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